Author: Deirdre Riordan Hall
Genre(s): Contemporary, Romance
Release Date: June 1, 2015
Date Read: July 15, 2015
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My Rating: ★ ★ ★ ✩ ✩
Sugar Legowski-Gracia wasn’t always fat, but fat is what she is now at age seventeen. Not as fat as her mama, who is so big she hasn’t gotten out of bed in months. Not as heavy as her brother, Skunk, who has more meanness in him than fat, which is saying something. But she’s large enough to be the object of ridicule wherever she is: at the grocery store, walking down the street, at school. Sugar’s life is dictated by taking care of Mama in their run-down home—cooking, shopping, and, well, eating. A lot of eating, which Sugar hates as much as she loves.
When Sugar meets Even (not Evan—his nearly illiterate father misspelled his name on the birth certificate), she has the new experience of someone seeing her and not her body. As their unlikely friendship builds, Sugar allows herself to think about the future for the first time, a future not weighed down by her body or her mother.
Soon Sugar will have to decide whether to become the girl that Even helps her see within herself or to sink into the darkness of the skin-deep role her family and her life have created for her.
I'm so emotionally drained after reading this. I didn't cry or anything but I felt so many internal emotions before finally settling on a warm, fuzzy feeling of happiness.
I felt for Sugar's character. I didn't like how submissive she was but I could totally see how she was emotionally and physically abused into believing that she had to put up with the disgusting acts of her horrible mother and brother. It was painful watching her live her life with these people. And even more painful to watch her silently put up with the bullying at school, no matter how cliche direct-from-a-typical-highschool-movie it seemed at times. It didn't even stop there. She's mocked in the grocery stores, the malls, the streets, everywhere.
"I hear the bullies at school and the bully in my own mind."
Everything is always bleak in Sugar's life so she stuffs her self with food to forget about her troubles. I'm sure all of us have binge-eaten to forget our sadness once in a while and I'm sure we've all felt the self-loathing that comes after but for Sugar (and many people out there), those dark moments are slowly taking over her life.
But then along comes Even. Not "Evan". Even because his dad is an illiterate, abusive douche that doesn't care at all about his son, including how his name is spelled. Despite his troubled home life, Even is a ray of sunshine in Sugar's dark world. He's caring, accepting, gentle and ambitious. He was such an adorable marshmallow and reminded me of this gif ~
|so adorable, I WANT TO SQUISH|
“I’ve always been too much and yet not enough.”
The reason why I'm dropping my rating to 3 stars is because the story was well-paced at first but I really felt like it started to drag after three quarters of the book. I ended up skimming the rest, which is something I always try to avoid. I just couldn't finish without speed-reading. It was that slow and I also didn't like the way the story headed. There was a sudden turning point that felt so abrupt and out-of-the-blue and it just arrghhh. It almost made Even's character feel like a Manic Pixie Dream Boy. Luckily, he had dreams and aspirations of his own that developed or I really would have been pissed to find out that his character was just a PURPOSE, not a CHARACTER on his own.
In the end, this story might have been too long for its own good but I could relate to the characters and I appreciated the overall message to focus on your own health and happiness before everything else.
This review copy was provided by NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.